i hate punishment u regulate u regulate U regulate gatekeeping gatekept why must u regulate them why must u regulate why must u regulate me gatekeeper gatekept policing your own friends after your own ends it’s so easy gatekept you regulate you regulate policing your own friends after your own ends it’s so easy gatekeeper gatekept show me your fucking badge who you tryna catch? who you tryna catch ? gatekeeper It’s so easy policing all your friends who you regulate gatekeeping gatekept why must u regulate them why must u regulate why must u regulate policing your own friends after your own ends gatekept you're worse than them you’re worse than them you wanna profit from the progress that’s worse than them ha ha ha act like you're heaven sent ha ha ha a-men ! you regulate gatekept it’s so easy

It’s all in my head feelings are chemicals bullshit is seminal no one wins i finish you finish me what scares you doesn’t scare me we are not the same no shame no shame no shame the word abuse can’t be used don’t mean nothing no more this is all about control i wanna rip my skin clean off that’s my cutoff cut fresh start fresh bleed it out if I give it everything i have nothing to feel bad about i bleed it out the cuts are the vents shut the fuck up stop pretending stop pretending your perfect that’s what’s hurting i read it just like everyone else that “better life” is just for yourself

we do not have to agree on everything it always fucks up everything we don’t have to see eye to eye eye to eye not eye for eye why you so righteous when you’re not fighting why you so righteous when you’re not fighting ? kill the cop in your head kill the right, kill the left what’s in your head what’s in your head what’s in your head? what’s trust when you’re on trial? how can we fight? you’re in denial it’s ok you’re just an asshole not a fascist i don’t want shit to stay the same don’t let them tell you it is what it is it is what it is

i went without u can’t seem to get enough motherless fuck motherlessfuck yea, good luck good luck with love i’ve had enough motherlessfuck you call me motherlessfuck lets go motherlessfuck fuck yea good luck good luck yeah good luck motherlessfuck good luck with love good luck with drugs goodluck with trust you’ll just fuck and propagate mistrust i’m not your kid know what you did you know what you did motherlessfuck i take what grown men can’t because i am because i am i am i am motherlessfuck yea good luck you’re just a fuck and propagate mistrust i’m not you’re kid know what you did you know what you did motherless fuck good luck with love good luck with trust “you’ll be fine” it doesn’t go away i hate everything you say it doesn’t go away

catching and throwing hands bitches don’t understand you do not know what i meant come out my face with my words cum where it hurts check your priorities first shit I been heard come out my face first this time I cum first coming face first between her legs face first between my legs face first between you and I at least she eat it like she mean it i don’t trust unless u eat it say it like u mean it u talk the most shit cuz u about the least convenient like see em when i see em then i leave em nothin good unless you sweat lookin good from the back gimme that neck asking me first wish a bitch would u ain’t make me do shit I don’t follow I quit i’m not his bitch i am his man i don’t own shit and I am not owned a date does not look like a loan i make them work i make them moan i do not follow your plans i’ll show up when I can no object for a man i object when I can there’s a long ass list of all the men i had sex with and there’s a longer ass list of all the men i ain’t ask shit who asked you shit? huh i was looking right past you bitch i can’t have you don’t speak until spoken to you know the rules he who do not know how to fuck me he who don’t eat it as good as she does me suck me suck me till i say stop suckin shut up i am not in love he think he in love bitch he’s a sub bitch he’s a dub let me show you how this dick works he act like his dick hurt but I check em and check em and check em till his dick hurt till my dick hurt

i don’t wanna sell every second of my life You don’t decide what i can and cannot hide every blink and fucking sigh narcissistic rants will try i don’t wanna sell every second of my life u don’t decide what i can and cannot hide started as a joke i don’t wanna sell now this is my life now this is my life wage slave wage slave was condemned now we’re worse than then i can’t decide i don’t wanna sell every second of my life

jealousy ain’t a mental illness bitch i know bitch i know you got symptoms we all got fuckin symptoms you just can’t use it like a weapon you gotta use it to listen your diagnosis is not a loaded gun you’re not the only one don’t make a mockery of all the people suffering bitch be humble, ya bitch be humble, ya bitch be breezy bitch be breezy take it easy, take it easy little rich girl u had too much fun bitch i know tell em shut the fuck up ima fuck em in the aa aa aa aa aa aa if he can feel it in the front wait till he feel it in the back back back back back back i keep em always wanting more if he like getting slapped slapped slapped slapped slapped i’m feelin cunt i’m feeling cunt jealousy is not a loaded gun now they wanna hear me talk and I’m not sure I’m not the one imposter syndrome another phrase invented so we can all pretend that covers it all clock out clock in cut the shit you look the part

for a dead man you got a lot of energy you don’t need to be different to be ok surrender your stories the little facts you think you know it’s feedback, not failure no need to put yourself in a jail yet it’s feedback, not failure we all live in a small box inside a little bit bigger box we all live in troubled times inside much more troubled times i get behind we all live inside our heads we all live with inconveniences entitlement we all live in a small box inside a big ol house with only two directions to take we all live with potential inside a little bit bigger potential we’re all nonessential who am I? inconsequential nonessential all the things I want make me upset when i get them nevertheless regretting is regressing just forget it all the things I want make me upset when I get them

i asked a question i just didn’t like the answer i pushed them away there was no way they could hate me and be wrong this is no love song this is an absence of presence this is an identification of my barriers to love this is no love song they could hate me and be wrong i’m addicted to my own anxiety nothing else is high for me i say yes i accept me and my own insecurities i accept i want myself i chose myself i want my life i’m still alive Tired vigilance Hypervigilance Fighter Resonance tighter Distance night of Stimulants Tired vigilance i see you look at him i see you look at me i know I need to let go or imma get dragged what the fuck you ask ? i asked a question i just didn’t like the answer am I enough?

i'm just a pretty boy, whatever you call it you wouldn't know a real man if you saw it it keeps going on day after day, son you fake, if you don't want none i'm sick and tired of people treating me this way everyday who gives a fuck right now I got something to say to all the people that think i'm strange and I should be out of here locked up in a cage you don't know what the hell is up now anyway you got this pretty-boy feeling like I'm enslaved to a world that never appreciated shit you can suck my dick and fucking like it! hear my gun, but he has a body mighty any say, anyway, going to say, anyway, any say, going away, going to say, anyway i'm just a pretty boy, I'm not supposed to fuck a girl i'm just a pretty girl, i’m supposed to fuck a boy all my life, who am I? i'm just a faget faget i'm not a faget I’m just a faget faget you motherfucking queers

you are so beautiful to me i’ll take care of you if you just let me i’ll even pull all the dead weight that’s all I learned i didn’t know I could deserve everyone took what they didn’t have and couldn’t give back people who are not there can only laugh practicing withholding affection an obligation to them it’s no different than then somethings wrong- it’s almost time for you to be gone. i didn’t even want to live through this once... what can I do to be done? are you with me ? if you’re with me then listen and all is forgiven what means more than forgiveness? we want the same shit it’s not giving in it’s just giving a shit just loosen your grip and you’ll start to feel things i didn’t ask you to fix me go ahead and yell you’ll just talk to yourself go ahead and just yell you’ll just talk to yourself i have to pull all of your weight you’re in control i can’t get whole you’re in control i can’t get whole you’re in control i have to pull all of your weight i’m insecure you’re insecure i’m insecure you’re insecure i’m insecure and you’re insecure Hahahahahahaaaaaa you’re insecure this was always so much more i’ll take care of you if you just let me i’ll even pull all of the dead weight i’ll even pull all of the dead weight deadweight you are so beautiful to me i give you everything if you just let me please i’m not sure if the bed’s made